I Love My In-Laws

Just an update to let everyone know I'm still doing OK. I've only cried a few times today, so I may be able to handle working tomorrow.. assuming I still have a job. (I called in yesterday at 11, when I should have been there at 7.) I'll find out. If they fire me after this, it's not a place I ought to be anyway. Oh well.
We're not thinking about suing anyone about the helmet any more. Even the detective says no helmet can save someone at 50 miles per hour.
It's been nice getting to know my new family. I was nervous to meet his brother, Jason, because everyone says he's a spitting image of Rusty, but I can see the differences; his brow doesn't come forward as much, and his hair is much lighter and more monotone, and there's something different about the shape of his chin, I think.. like it's not as square, or it doesn't stick out as much.
Rusty's siblings (and cousin, Tracy) and I went to Pella to see the tulips. Only about half of them were blooming, but it's still pretty. Then Cathy (his mom) called and told us we were under a tornado watch, so we came back home to Cathy's house. No tornados.
We had the family viewing, to which my mom, step-dad, sister and niece was invited. I was included in the big decision-making that involved only his two biological parents and myself. We couldn't find a renaissance-themed urn. I mentioned his beer mug, which has a lid, and the woman at the funeral home said to wait until we know how many ashes. (I was excited to find an urn that's biodegradable, designed to have a tree planted in the ashes, and the tree eventually outgrowing the urn. I would want one like that, if I had to choose for myself. I've had such pleasure with paper products; books and art, it seems fitting to feed a tree.)
The Des Moines Register charges $4 PER LINE for obituaries, so we passed on that, and settled for a page on their website, in which it says the visitation will be Wednesday, but it is on Tuesday. (Also, my name is spelled Geisler, not Giesler, as it's written. I didn't even notice; my mom did. It was my mistake.)
I also designed the cards we'll be handing out Tuesday. They're gorgeous, and I'll probably post them on Deviantart. The family says the same thing I've heard from many other people; You've got talent, you can make some money doing this. Rusty always said, "Rae, if I only had half the talent and skill you have..." so I felt pressed to design them myself when we discussed these things at the funeral home. We haven't printed them yet, but I'll send one to any who request it. rmgeisler@gmail.com
Yesterday I found out I have a voicemail message from Rusty. The first thing he says is "I love you."